season change

The temperature have started to dip, at night, and are not rising that much during the day.  Fall came a little over a week ago and it was, finally, time to put the shorts and tank tops away.  This morning, I pulled from the attic my "cold weather" clothes.   But I was in for a bit of a shock.

Last spring when I put these things away, I was 25 lbs heavier and had about 5% more body fat.  And they were a little loose from the previous year, when I was 65 lbs more than I currently am.  We don't want to discuss my % body fat!  There was a reason I never figured it out then.

So, I ended up with a nice pile to go to the local Good will store.  I use to keep some of my "larger" clothes, you know, "just in case", but was strongly encouraged NOT to do that.  Because it sets up in the back of your head, "I may fail, so I need to be prepared".  This way, I get rid of all those "failure" choices.  But of course, since I haven't been at my new size in over 15 years, I don't have a lot of clothes!  I'm going to have to wear some that are a little "loose" for now.  I'll go shopping after Christmas when everything goes on sale.   Plus my goal date is Christmas, or there abouts, so that will work out fine.

I found out from the doctor that there is little arthritis in my knee and no tear.  I was so happy.  However, he still can't figure out why it just "gives out", so he sent me off to a specialist.  I see him tuesday.  He is the same sports medicine doctor that evaluated my shoulder and I trust him.  Plus, he will be able to tell me what I can and can not do to strengthen my legs.  I'm pretty sure, at this point, I must have strained the ligaments. Lets hope he agrees!  That would mean some PT and then I can get back to the TBB Challenge.  I still am in it and no matter what happens plan on continuing my path to that Ironman.

One of the things that this journey, in becoming a TBB coach and training is teaching me is confidence.  I have a number of people that believe in me, but the most important person who needs to believe in me, is me.  Because when it comes down to a race or in life, I'm the one I have to live with and be happy with.  There will always be obstacles and challenges to face in life.  It's how we deal with them that defines us.  And I am learning to deal with them by looking for the solution instead of wallowing in the problem.