A little at a time

I restarted P90X2 today.  As you may (or maybe not!) remember, I started it this past spring.  But with doing so much swimming, I ran out of time to complete it, before the season started.

However, I plan on having this as my primary workout for the next 90 days.  I will add Insanity (for endurance and weight loss) and Chalean Extreme (for strengthening) as time goes on.  My original plan was to start it September 1st but that darn job got in the way!  If there was only a way I could pay my bills and not work, hmmm.......

Anyway, I had done all of the workouts for the first phase so I was familiar with the workout.  I even remembered Tony Horton's jokes!  But this time was a little different.  I could tell.  And it was inside.

When I started working with Wendy, I had little self confidence in regards to my ability to become a triathlete.  I knew I wanted to attempt to train and ultimately get to an Ironman.  But in my mind, it was my "Mt Everest".  I knew it was possible but it was going to take a great deal of work, a great deal of sweat, probably some tears, and a lot of trust.  Trust in my coach, but also trust in myself.  I have attempted many things in the past and failed at them.  And an Ironman?  I've had folks physically recoil when I say I'm going to train for that.  And it made me start to think "what makes me think I can do that?"

But I had made a commitment, to Wendy but more importantly to myself, at least for this first season.  I was going to do that Olympic triathlon.  So, I trained and I learned to swim, then I started to build up my running and biking endurance.  Then I did the Sprint tri and was in the water for the first time, ever in a race and I loved it! And that confidence grew each time I conquered another goal.

I often joke, with Wendy, that I'm never going to "fire" her, that I have big dreams beyond that Ironman.  And the reason is because of the level of trust I have in her and her coaching.  She told me when we first started working together, that my confidence would grow, as I grew as a triathlete.  And that while I may always have doubts, their hold on me would not be as strong.

I had to make some modifications with P90X2 today.  Some of the exercises I couldn't do (how the heck do you do that Dreya roll????), but instead of thinking less of myself for not being able to do it, I was proud of the fact I'm attempting it.  It will take time to learn all the moves and be able to do the workout from start to finish.  But I have no doubt I will complete it.

I'm a different person from the person who started 2012.  I never knew doing something that I've always dreamed of would change me this much.  And the only thing I did was become a triathlete.